Or not so much...

So I know I talked about writing another blog soon, and it would likely be "R" rated, but I think I've lost the passion to write about that subject. Suffice it to say, I'm losing faith in people. One of my "best" friends started dating a guy I used to hang out with (I really hate that term, but it's the best that fits) after she asked if I minded and I said YES! And then I started thinking back on our friendship and realized this isn't close to the first time she's done this to me...which really sucks. I love her, but when she does shit like this it just makes me wonder if it's worth it in the end. Also, another old friend (this time male) and I started "hanging out" (there it is again!) from New Year's up to a couple weeks ago. He randomly stopped responding to my texts, etc. so I was a little confused because I thought he really liked me. My feelings toward him were a little ambivalent but he expressed his for me quite frequently which was nice. I get on facebook one day and find out he now has a GIRLFRIEND! Might be why he stopped the communication between us...I feel very slighted though. We've known each other forever and I feel he at least owed me the respect to tell me in person that he started dating someone else.

So that's the gist of what I was going to write...last week it would have been riddled with expletives and a lot of passion, but now my feelings have dissipated on both subjects.

In other news...I think if I had to choose words for all the letters in my name, I think "I" would stand for inappropriate. I don't have a lot of boundaries, but I know what's socially acceptable and not, so I generally censor myself. Trust me, if most people could see inside my head, unfiltered, they probably wouldn't be my friend anymore. :P Especially since I was diagnosed with UC and was forced to talk about my poop with a whole host of people...that really didn't help! Well, I guess I should stop this rant before I start crossing some of those aforementioned boundaries (like telling you that I wrote this whole thing on the toilet). Hehe!